reminder that this is the actual greatest youtube video of all time
the preview image is the girls about to kiss and it doesn’t display the title until you click play so i really didn’t know what to expect
This is one of my favorite videos on the internet
hey hey hey if you havent watched this scroll back up because its worth it
Monday 9:16 am
You bought me coffee and it spilled all over me and burned my skin. How fucking ironic.
Tuesday 12:36 pm
I wrote a poem about you for English class. My teacher gave me an A and sent me to the guidance counselor.
Wednesday 4:09 am
You now have a voicemail from me crying into the phone. Please don’t bring it up later.
Thursday 8:08 pm
I skipped school today because my heart was bleeding, I think. I don’t really know what’s going on in my chest right now. But I think it feels like what you’d feel if your heart started bleeding. And I know hearts are supposed to pump blood and stuff so I guess it’s like hearts are always bleeding but that’s not what I mean. I mean like, if someone fucking slashed it down the middle.
Friday 12:19 pm
I’m hiding in the back of the library because the new boy in math class smells like you and I got dizzy.
Saturday 6:03 am
I haven’t fucking slept and I need to hear your voice but I know that if I do I’ll fucking lose it. But does it really matter? I’ve already lost you. What else is left? You were everything. That was a really big mistake. I shouldn’t have made you everything. You could’ve been half of everything. Then maybe I’d be half okay. And you can come back from half okay. You can get good. But you can’t come back from the dead. I’m so fucking dead. You were so fucking everything.
Sunday 10:09 pm
I can’t sleep because you’re not here. But if you were here, I’d just be shaking really hard, trying to keep my heart from pounding so hard it breaks my ribs, and trying to keep from kissing you. Maybe I’ll just never sleep again. You always said you liked the way I look when I’m tired.
“
| — | This Week Without You (via extrasad) |
1hey:
it hurt when I stumbled across her.
she was like broken glass all along the floor.
but it was beautiful and my curiosity got the best of me.
I remember looking at her and all I could see was pain.
she had this insane look of desperation; you could almost feel it.
and yet her eyes were still hollow; like the life had been sucked out of her.
I wanted to pick up her pieces.
I wanted to put her back together.
and so I tried. I really did.
I got a little cut along the way.
the more I tried to fix her the more fragile I became myself but I didn’t care.
I wanted to see her happy.
every time I made her laugh I thought about how I wanted to make her laugh forever.
she was getting better.
eventually she was put together enough to get up and walk away.
but she didn’t take me with her.
and I’ve been stuck sitting here where I first found her.
wondering if the pieces left on the floor are hers or mine.
I should probably get the fuck up.THIS IS SO BEAUTIFUL OHMYGOD
wow..
This actually fucking hurt to read.
✧☼calm☼✧
do not tell her you love her if you are not ready for her to call you at 3 AM freaking out.
do not tell her you love her if you cannot handle her father or mother.
do not tell her you love her if you cannot love her at her worse.
do not tell her you love her if you only crave for her curves, not her mind.
do not tell her you love her if you cannot deal with her mood swings.
do not tell her you love her just to have sex.
do not tell her you love her if you cannot handle her father or mother.
do not tell her you love her if you cannot love her at her worse.
do not tell her you love her if you only crave for her curves, not her mind.
do not tell her you love her if you cannot deal with her mood swings.
do not tell her you love her just to have sex.
“
| — | do not tell her you love her. Krystal Gonzalez (via memoriesrecollected) |
Even when I wanted to die, to kill myself
To rip each cell of my being apart, not once,
Not ever, did I miss a piece of homework.
Or fail a test or skip an hour-long lesson.
Sure, I skipped three meals a day but at least
I had my priorities straight.
I see these kids walking in front of me to school.
I see them, and they are zombies.
Blank faces, I doubt they’ve slept,
Probably up all night doing that essay
They forgot to do because their parents
Asked them to spend a few hours with them.
And I know this isn’t right but
I remember overhearing someone rant
About how mental illnesses are so common these
Days; they’ve become the latest fashion accessories
For the young.
It’s popular to be damaged. That makes no sense.
These kids are going insane.
Perhaps if you looked the tiniest
Bit further you’d see that this system is not working.
The clue is that millions of children are being literally
Driven mad by it each day.
But at least they’re averaging Bs
And thank god they cut themselves when they
leave school so the teachers don’t have to deal with it.
nigga if a girl wants to talk to you every minute of the day, wants to talk on the phone to hear your voice, wants you to send her pictures because she likes seeing your face, wants to introduce you to her friends and family, willing to travel distance for you, wants to smother you with affection, waits for you no matter how long, sticks by your side no matter how much wrong you’ve done
like dude she fucking loves you man dont fucking waste a good girl like that
This is how you lose her.
You lose her when you forget to remember the little things that mean the world to her: the sincerity in a stranger’s voice during a trip to the grocery, the delight of finding something lost or forgotten like a sticker from when she was five, the selflessness of a child giving a part of his meal to another, the scent of new books in the store, the surprise short but honest notes she tucks in her journal and others you could only see if you look closely.
You must remember when she forgets.
You lose her when you don’t notice that she notices everything about you: your use of the proper punctuation that tells her continuation rather than finality, your silence when you’re about to ask a question but you think anything you’re about to say to her would be silly, your mindless humming when it is too quiet, your handwriting when you sign your name in blank sheets of paper, your muted laughter when you are trying to be polite, and more and more of what you are, which you don’t even know about yourself, because she pays attention.
She remembers when you forget.
You lose her for every second you make her feel less and less of the beauty that she is. When you make her feel that she is replaceable. She wants to feel cherished. When you make her feel that you are fleeting. She wants you to stay. When you make her feel inadequate. She wants to know that she is enough and she does not need to change for you, nor for anyone else because she is she and she is beautiful, kind and good.
You must learn her.
You must know the reason why she is silent. You must trace her weakest spots. You must write to her. You must remind her that you are there. You must know how long it takes for her to give up. You must be there to hold her when she is about to.
You must love her because many have tried and failed. And she wants to know that she is worthy to be loved, that she is worthy to be kept.
And, this is how you keep her.
the caption
you have to read this
And this is how you lost me.
Wanna be nosy. . . here's your chance.
0: Height
5'9"
1: Virgin?
negative ghost rider
2: Shoe size
7-8ish
3: Do you smoke?
yep
4: Do you drink?
occasionally
5: Do you take drugs?
nah
6: Age you get mistaken for
19ish
7: Have tattoos?
noo
8: Want any tattoos?
YES
9: Got any piercings?
yes
10: Want any piercings?
yes yes yes
11: Best friend?
Shane, of four years
12: Relationship status
complicated AF
13: Biggest turn ons
humor
14: Biggest turn offs
drinking
15: Favorite movie
dont really have one
16: I’ll love you if
you dont criticize my past
17: Someone you miss
everyone.. im lonely
18: Most traumatic experience
my parents splitting up
19: A fact about your personality
im wishy washy
20: What I hate most about myself
my need to be wanted
21: What I love most about myself
my strong will to do what needs to be done
22: What I want to be when I get older
anything but who i am
23: My relationship with my sibling(s)
great.
24: My relationship with my parent(s)
better than most
25: My idea of a perfect date
something that has to do with a park and a long convo
26: My biggest pet peeves
when someone picks on a huge insecurity cause they think its funny
27: A description of the girl/boy I like
tall, not skinny, humorous, a challenge
28: A description of the person I dislike the most
snotty, bitchy, prissy, handed everything in life
29: A reason I’ve lied to a friend
i didnt want to hurt her feelings
30: What I hate the most about work/school
the people there
31: What your last text message says
"nah"
32: What words upset me the most
K
33: What words make me feel the best about myself
you mean a lot to me
34: What I find attractive in women
a good head on her shoulders
35: What I find attractive in men
respectful
36: Where I would like to live
california
37: One of my insecurities
my body
38: My childhood career choice
chiropractor
39: My favorite ice cream flavor
cotton candy
40: Who I wish I could be
anyone but me
41: Where I want to be right now
at a park
42: The last thing I ate
salad
43: Sexiest person that comes to my mind immediately
someone
44: A random fact about anything
gum makes me burp
